Last Tuesday, I went to the gym as usual, but this time with a friend. I hopped on the treadmill and started my Leg Shaper routine. The lady on my right ran on 4.4 and the lady on my left walked on 7.3, but I was extremely happy with my 6 speed. But was I? I decided to speed it up to 6.3 and see what happens to my body. NOTHING.
Because it already hurts. It already fucking hurts when I take the stairs to the first floor to reach the ladies section. It already hurts while I’m changing my clothes to start my workout. It already hurts to lift my leg up to put my socks on and it hurts my arm to wear my bra! It just always hurts, so what’s the difference anyway? The difference is this: It hurts now, so it will hurt less next time. I keep reminding myself of that. I hate it when a trainer comes up to tell me what routines should I do, and routines should I do more of and blah blah blah! Because I know my body more than this slim trainer, and I know my body better than this friend lecturing me about every bite I eat! I know my body better than those who think of themselves as more knowledgeable than I am when it came to my body.
Even when I push myself while running to run more, my lungs won’t cooperate! My lungs are just too weak to handle what my whole body can. It gives up too quickly. My asthma always comes to stare me at the face while I’m exercising, but I insist on screaming: I’m stronger BI*@#! I start yawning, panting, sweating, and I just do it until the end in the hopes that next time it will hurt less. I went 4 times after Tuesday, and every time, magically, I noticed that it hurts less. So, I think now it’s the time to start spicing things up.
I think I should run for more than those lousy 20 minutes of mine! and squat more than those 15×4! right? I should really run for a 15 then do other exercises then run for another 15. I think I should squat 20×4 starting tomorrow. I think I should make it hurt more and more so it could hurt just way less the upcoming time.
I bought today Peanut butter & oats and I will also start putting more fruits and vegetables in my diet plan. Wish me luck with that!