The 50th! Isn’t it a special number that should be celebrated accordingly? I had a very long day today! I woke up, went to work, then had to go to a course I’m attending and as it turns out we had a quiz, and then I went to the GYM. What was I thinking going to the gym after this long day? And frankly speaking, I have no idea. To be honest, I had the possibility in mind when I was preparing my breakfast in the morning before going to work, and as a result, I prepared an extra slice of brown bread, but instead of putting light cheese on it, I used light strawberry jam. Just in case I had enough strength at the end of the day to hit the gym I will at least have a pre-workout snack. I’m not even sure if this is a proper one, but anyway.
When I first arrived at my office, a friend of mine got each and every one of us a chocolate cake as a sign of generosity, and she really is, but I said NO to myself, and passed it to another colleague. I went to the gym, changed my clothes, and got on the treadmill. Then, an idea hit me: What should I be doing today to celebrate my struggle. I always choose the Leg Shaper running routine and set the maximum speed to 5, but today I set it to 6. I know that 6 to some athletics or even to some normal people might look silly, but to someone with my weight, it is a breakthrough. I found myself running, like a turtle, but running. There were normal paced walks in between the maximum speed sprints. I thought I was going to die, or maybe faint. “I shouldn’t go hard on myself” is what I heard my brain telling me and then my brain paused. I had to breathe and focus on breathing in the right manner.
At this moment, I remembered some quote that I once read “What doesn’t challenge you, doesn’t change you.” and as cliche as this might sound, but this is actually true. I had to do it. I had to run. I had to find difficulty in catching my breath. My thighs had to hurt much. My hair was flying everywhere, and my ankles almost gave up. But I did it, and I’m proud. Because simply, your goals don’t care how you feel, they care only about your hard work and dedication.