I took a leap of faith and enrolled in a gym despite the fact that I already have a treadmill at home. You know! you might get more motivated when you other people sharing with you the same goal, working so hard on their bodies to be healthy! On the contrary, I was demotivated on my third visit to the gym.
I choose a gym that opens at 7 am to attend before going to my full-time job’s office and closes by 2 am to go at the end of my day when needed. It is featuring a steam room, sauna, jacuzzi, and even a massage room. I went there and just put my headphones on and start walking gradually faster every 5 minutes for 20 minutes then I go back to the lowest as I started at the last 5 minutes. Then, I do the chest press, train my biceps and triceps. I even tried a cardio machine that I know nothing about, I also bike for 15-20 minutes and then squat 10×3. Anyway, on my third a visit, a trainer stopped me saying all kind of athletic stuff and how easy it is for me to lose weight. We made an appointment to do my InBody. InBody is a check-up they do to the body to calculate the fat percentage, the skeleton’s weight, and the muscle mass in your body.
I went, all enthusiastic about the whole idea, and after we were done, she talked to me as if I’m the fattest person alive! Well, the truth is: I know I am overweight, but I believe that I’m not fat. I have fat. Fat can be burned. End of story. She said a lot of things that I don’t remember, or maybe I don’t want to. All I can say about that day that I was depressed. I dragged myself out of the gym after the harsh workout she forced me into doing. I resisted eating pasta! or buying some ice cream to ease my mental pain. I resisted going to McDonald’s to order a tasty strawberry milkshake. I resisted too many bad ideas and I just went home and slept. I stayed true to myself about eating healthy food, but I did not go to the gym for the next two days.
I was angry at her, the trainer, and angry at my body. Then, I woke up on the third day after the incident and I told myself that I have to be stronger than that. I weighed myself before that InBody thing and I already lost 5 kilos in 2 weeks and that’s a small achievement towards my big goal. I tried to reprogram my brain again: I’m not fat. I have fat, and it can be burned. The problem with people is that they think we want to lose weight and that’s our only target. They do not understand how challenging it is to change your whole mindset. It is about our health and nothing more. A skinny trainer won’t be able to imagine you unable to catch your breath because of three stairs or a slightly quick stroll. It is never good to be looking for a shirt and your legs start ailing you after going to three stores consecutively in the mall and you are starting to look for the nearest cafe to rest your feet. It hurts. It hurts more than any person can think of and that’s why I started. Not because of I-want-to-look-sexy crap!
You are not fat. You have fat, and fat can be burned. End of story.